Brighten my day just that much.

Through it all, you remain beautiful.
No matter what you stay strong.
Even when you're about to fall,
just keep your chin up and bear through it.
Even if you don't think you can make it,
just know that somebody out their knows you can.
Somebody like me.

Shes only 5 damn it.

It really pisses me off how you wont leave me alone.
Really, you're acting as if I'm a terrible person.
You think I do illegal actions.
No.
I don't.

My day wasn't great because of illegal substances or actions.
I went for a 6 mile walk with Kevin and we got to talk.
My day wasn't great because I fainted from lack of food.
Instead, it was great when I sat down and ate 1,000 calories.
My day wasn't great because of earth shaking sex,
I'm a virgin. Sorry to dissapoint.

People need to grow up so much.
I have a great day,
and they insist on ruining it.

It's one thing to do so on accident.
But purposfully putting me in a situation to strictly harm,
that's just cruel.

Haven't you caused enough harm to me.
Keep in your mind I'm a bad person,
It helps you sleep at night.

Please, not now though.
Not while the planets are fighting,
Not while the channels are filled with hate,
Not while the little girl cries.

Just hold off,
Not for me,
But for her.
She's only 5 years old.
She can't handel this too.
For her.

I know it a crazy concept of me caring about somebody else,
But please,
she can't take it.

And I will accept it.

The old girl.
Jade Moonstar they called her.
She had a lot of issues.
Those issues got to her and she fell.
She changed then,
She started gripping tighter,
She was getting dry.
The weights seemed to get lighter.
But they pulled harder.

Jade Moonstar was not the same as before.
She had lost the connection to her name with the weight.
She needed more change.
She wanted to further her recovery,
Leave her past where it belongs.

She traded her identity for a new one.
A stronger one.
One that fits her personailty.
One that shows the indigo.
One that is her personality.

Aventine Lapis Lazuli was born.
Jade Moonstar was put in the memory box.

Aventine Lapis Lazuli:
Good luck,
Creative,
Smart,
Perceviance.
Healer,
Emotional and mental well being.
Stable for herself and others.
cleansing.
Can draw out inner truth and peace.

That name suites me better.
It's a new name,
a new beginning.
A change for the better.
It's me.

For with Michael's protection and love I can survive this.
With God and Goddess with me in hand and heart I can pull forward
With a great support system to which I care deeply for,
I can over come the many challenges that await me.

Aventurine Lapis Lazuli,
My future awaits.

As Above So Below.

I guess some would say I'm better,
I guess some would say I'm stronger.
I guess some would say I'm powerful,
I guess some would say I'm better off without her.

But they don't get it.
They think I'm better then her, then them.

I'm not better, I'm equal.

They think I'm on a high horse,
Or I'm sitting on a thrown.
Then think I'm just an asshole,
Or a bitch or other foul words.

They seem to forgett that I'm not better,
I never thought I was.
I'm just equal,
I'm just the same as them.

Please can you just leave me alone.
I'm not going back to her.
If you want tips on how to help her,
I'll be glad to give,
I don't want you to hurt her.

If you need help on something when shes not there,
I'll try and help,
but thats where it stops.
I'm not going back.

Just one thing though,
Don't ask me how to trill the A flat I think in the parade tune.
I don't like that fingering so I don't do it.

This whole feud is getting really stupid.
We have to spend the next 3 years together.
Lets have a few laughs,
Have a good time on feild,
but thats where it stops.

Lets face the facts.
Me and her are not friends,
neither of us wish to be.
Both of us have moved on,
I know I have for the better,
I wish the same for her.

We have to deal with eachother,
so lets look at this with mature eyes.
Can we just cut down the name calling and such,
my end and hers, (this includes friends also)
We're all people and none of us enjoy the names.

The mean facebook pages,
even though you may have not posted it,
many think you did.
Lets just put it behind us,
move on.
Can we not let it happen again please?

I don't see why all the bad looks,
the name calling,
the insults,
rude comments.
We are all people, can we just stop it?

I know if any of my friends say anything about you guys,
which rarely, if ever happens,
I will tell them to shut it because this is going to get out of hand.

Lets just stop the feud,
The promis breaking,
The secret screaming,
all the negitives that have happened before.

Lets just stop.

I'm putting it behind me,
I've changed a lot since then.
Let's just move on in life,
and that be the end.

Theirs a few unresolved issues between me and her that we should work out.
such as the fact she thinks I was spreading rumors.
I will admit the part that she heard would make it seem so.
She didn't hear the first part that would justify my actions.
I will admit however I did say a few rude comments about her in my rantings,
as I'm positive she did as well.

Lets just move on from them.
Put it behind us,
Lets not hold grudges,
None of us will move forward in life if we do.

Lets just move on.
put it behind us.
We aren't the same people we once were.