3,2,1, Im not hiding.

1
One.
Single.
2.
Two.
Couple.
3.
Three.
Few.

One word,
One couple,
Few seconds left together.

Spiraling down,
I'm okay.

Tears streaming,
I need help.

My body functions but I do not.
Im panicing.

I need him.
I cant anymore.

Not now.
Not now.

I grab my teddy.
My jacket it is on.

I see headlights,
I open my door.

I colapse in silent
wipe stray tears

Words are said
Hugs are given

Laughs replace tears
Comfort

But everything ends.

Inside, alone.
Teddy in hand.

Nobody knows.
Upstairs.

Phone.
Friend.

Calm.
Okay.

Bye.
Cry.

Downstairs.
Juice.

Thoughts.
Cry.

Calm.
Okay.

Homework.
Cry.

Upstairs.
Sleep.

Repeat.
Repeat.
Repeat.

I see him everyday.
I can't take it.

I can't do this.
What can't I do?

Confused.
Wondering.

Remembering.
Not okay.

Hugs
Dont exist

Her.
of course.
Okay.

Okay.
Cry.

Live.
Breath.

Breath.
Breath.


I have to focas not on how what when why
What ifs never solved anything.

Breath.
Breath.
Breath.

Im worse.
Im worse.

Love.