November 15th 2009

~The fallowing work is a conversation with a distant friend, in which I haven't talked to in a few years. What you will read, is her end of the conversation. I wrote this after a panic attack, so it may appear hectic at times, for I minimize editing what I say in poetry. Jade ~

I don't even know you anymore.
You have changed so much.
Since when are you so tall?
Puberty,
When'd that happen?
You're not fat anymore?
Anerexia?
That's not like you.

Your hair?
It was purple?
You used to against changing your hair at all.
It's so straight now.
That's not the girl I know.

Your nails?
They're painted purple.
Just like always.
But your fingers?
Why are they scarred?
Oh.
Um,
Why?
Oh.
That's not the girl I know.

Why are you shaking?
You're numb?
Do you need a blanket?
I have one...
oh.

I see you have contacts.
Why no more glasses?
Oh.
Your teeth are still,
so your still,
oh.
Well your acne is really clearing.
But their only kids,
they couldn't,
oh.

You're so pretty though.
I'm not lying.
Stop putting yourself down.

I get it.
Yes I do.
Just listen!
Stop Shaking!
Here,
have a blanket.
Why are you shaking?
Breethe!
Come on girly!
You can talk to me.
Why are you,

Stop Screaming!
You're not the girl I know,
with the tweety bird overalls.
"Stop acting like some poor,
misunderstood child.
You're not.
So you've had a hard life.
But seriously,
get over yourself.
Like really,
Stop pittying yourself."
That's all you want,
but really,
find something to be depressed about.

You're not the girl I know.
I get that,
But seriously we all have problums.
So get a F*cking life.

Wait,
You're not Christian?
That's why your so screwed up.


~I quoted a friend in this peice of work.
When I originally wrote it November 15th, this quote did not apply.
But it is how ever a quote that haunts me everyday,
and it is used appropriatly in this peice,
and I found it necissary to include it,
for all the pain it has brought.

And yes, I was anerexic, note the word was, I get easily scarred by the simplest things, and am not Christain. Any further clarifications that need to be made clear to you, leave a comment, and I will do my best to respond.

Thanks for reading
~Jade