Freshman Year #22

Four and a half hours
until I go home
Four and a half hours
until I reach my keyboard
Four and a half hours
until I see my family
Four and a half hours
until I escape these judgmental beady eyes
Four and a half hours
until I talk to them
Four and a half hours
until I'm alone
Four and a half hours
until I have to fight addictions
Four and a half hours
until I'm free
Four and a half hours
and surprisingly,
I'm okay with that.


-written in bio about a week before attempting suicide for the second time-