I look at this list over and over again,
wishing someone I could trust would pop up
I need to talk to somebody
I need to be saved from my self
has been 16 days.
I'm not about to ruin that
No matter what the cost.

I need to be saved from myself
Can somebody come save me?
Can somebody talk to me?
I wish I could call some one to have them help,
but anyone I would,
has left me

I'm debating on calling her,
because I know if she called me right now,
and was acting like me,
I would still help her.
I wouldn't turn my back

I know it's not the same as before
But she did it with her old friend
at that football game last year.
So mabey that offer applys to me?

No it doesn't.
She can't deal with me.
Rather she doesn't care enough
would somebody please just get on

I don't have Kizzie or Andis or Grants number,
Why cant they just get online?
I stare at hte lists one more time.
Jen is on.
Should I bother her?
No. She would laugh at me
No she wouldn't.
But she sure as hell doesn't care.
Why does everybody have be off line.

Should I bother calling her?
She would love to hear me like this.
It would bring a smile to her face.

Besides, what am I having this freak out over?
Their isn't any boy problum,
Their isn't any family problum
Stress?
Mabey...
Stress is the highest possibiliy.
Drama?
I'm staying out of it.
Any friend issues?
Just me and her.
And that isn't causing any big break downs or depression...

What is causing this other than stress?
Its only 2-7-10
hmm...
That number has some form of sentimental thing
I can't remember what was important about today.
Its something though..

It's no use, I can't think of it.
YES I CAN
Oh jeez...
This was the day with the thing back in England,
Where She got locked up with the baby,
Because of Peter...
I think
That sounds right.
Doesn't it?
Yea.
Mabey she knows.
Because that would explain a lot.

Oh well,
mabey if she reads this, she can tell me.
It sounds like shes having a bad day...
But that could mean anything