two in one

Your my number one,
I'm your last resort.
Your my only hope,
I'm your worst nightmare.
You keep me alive and safe
You want dead and bleeding.

I'm not here dreaming,
I'm not wishing for you.
I'm here simply to spite you.
I'm here to prove you wrong
When you see me,
I want you to see how strong I am
You will never take over me
I have a passion so strong
You will never break me down
No matter what you do
You will always fail
I'm happy and strong
So get over yourself
and fuck off bitch,
This is my life now

I dont want to miss my life
Expecially to be miserable for you
I can deal with shit,
but you can just fuck off bitch
this is my life now

I know you've been through hell lately,
But I dont give a shit
I really dont,
You dont care about me,
You dont love me
You just cvause pain and misery
Im better off with out you bastard
I dont need you like I once did.
So fuck off bitch,
this is my life now.

Why am I still alive
Why am I still awake
I cant defeat you
I cant win this everlasting battle
Let the white flags sway,
as I slip into this life,
I have tried time and time again to escape.
Let the rivers flow red,
Let the avalanche come
Let my world fall all around me.
You win.
I can't lie to you,
I can't lie to myself.
I'm not okay,
I need help.
Again I'm asking,
begging and pleading for support.
I can not find any in my closest friends.
For I know my secrets mean nothing to you.
Thanks for being their for me.
Thanks for being a true friend.
Sorry I let you down,
But let the rivers flow red,
let the avalanche fall,
Let my world rise above me.
I can't hold onto the edge forever.
Let me up,
Let me sink.
But it's pointless to keep holding on.